Oct 8, 2013

On the Outside Looking In

Do y'all ever feel like you are playing a role?  Today, I dropped my toddler off at preschool, then headed to the grocery store.  As I strolled the aisles in my black skinny pants, striped long cardigan and white drapey tee concealing my burgeoning belly, I felt like one of the cute yuppie moms that I babysat for in Atlanta during law school. I felt like I was playing the part as I loaded my station wagon with a gallon of organic milk, Greek yogurt and Cheerios.

It still baffles me that I have a child old enough to have conversations. When nannying during law school, I remember imagining myself as a mom, managing young children and a home.  Now, when college students at brunch ooh and ahh over Dell Harper's cuteness, I see them envisioning a future of post church brunches with their own cute toddlers and husbands, just as I did.

So basically, this entire ramble is just about how I still can't believe I'm a grownup . . .

9 comments:

  1. I totally get this! Sometimes I look at the college girls at brunch and see them in their yoga pants and tee shirts and we're in our church clothes. They smile at the kids and I think that they must think we're so old. And then I remember being that age and all I wanted was to have a family and a husband who would take hi family to church on Sundays and little kiddos to love on. Love this.

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  2. Four days from this moment, I'll be a wife. I keep wondering when someone is going to pat me on the shoulder and say, "There there, BHB, it's time to wake up from this perfect dream and get back to dating cheap, selfish investment bankers with commitment issues." But it's not a dream - it's my life and I'm so grateful but yes, sometimes I truly can't believe it's real.

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  3. I feel this way all the time! I always feel like I'm dreaming when I watch the hubs with Quinn.

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  4. I feel this way all the time ... at Target, the park, the gym. I'm "that" person, that mom. I love it, it makes me so happy.

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  5. Ha! Hilarious. In my mind I am still 19.

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  6. I know right?! I pinch myself all the time like I can't believe how old I am :)

    ps: BIG congrats! Haven't stopped by your cute blog in a while & I'm thrilled for yall! I've got 4 weeks and I'm counting down the days as this pregnancy has totally taken it out of me. Hope you're well sweet girl!

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  7. Sometimes I wake up and remember again that I'm pregnant (for the third time!) and it strikes me again this thought of, "How am I mature enough to handle THIS responsibility???" I totally get it. :)

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